Why I STILL Love you...

Here it is 6 years later and I still find each of these things to be as valid as they were the day they were written. In most cases, more so. You still inspire me to be better everyday and your charms still sweep me off my feet. Like that old Brian Adams song "Everything I do, I do it for you." You are my inspiration, my muse and my strength to keep pushing forward. You are my strong shoulder and the foundation that I've built my life on. I am so grateful for every second that you've been there to keep pushing me to be more open with you because now I have the most amazing relationship with the most amazing man and I feel it continues to get stronger...Thank you for never giving up on me, even in the darkest of our days. Thank you for continuing to to push even when you didn't know if you had the strength. THAT is why I Love You...

Your gentleness...

I'm having a hard day today and I really don't know what I'm doing right now but I don't want to miss a day telling you all the reasons that you are amazing. Today I went and signed the paperwork to file for divorce and ironically enough Joshua called me and said we needed to sit down and figure out a schedule and finish separating stuff and I told him that I was filing. The reason I'm telling you this is because it's so amazing how different people can be. I've always been one to be fair and I try to do whats right and Josh is so very "do what I want when I want no matter who or what gets hurt." His statement today before I told him what I was going to do was...I was thinking that you could have him 2 or three weekends out of the month that would give you six days with him. And all I can picture is you and how you are with your kids, knowing that had you been in the same position with the power you would have done what I was doing and offered equal time so that the kids could have both parents. You are so gentle when it comes the the things in life that are sincerely important...mostly when it comes to emotional well being and I truly admire that about you. You are so amazing with all of the kids and with everyone that you care about. You're a tall and skinny teddy bear, whom  I love very much.

Your Touch...

It was a little odd for me in the beginning but it is something I can't live without now. I was so used to not having that physical contact when we first stared dating that I didn't really know how to respond to it. But, your touch, your hands running across my skin just as we pass by each other through the house sends electricity through me. Your hands across my chest or sliding up and down my hips just excites me even more. I love the warmth that your touch brings to me and the sensation of what that touch means to both of us. Your need for touch has created an unrelenting desire to be touched by you. I Love You.

Your Skin…

    Simple it seems that something like your skin would be something that would make me go crazy. It is one of the more intimate parts of our relationship, holding each other so close and nothing between the two of us.  Utterly wild it sometimes makes me and maddening being so close to you and yet not being able to touch you. My favorite thing being able run my hands along your chest, so amazingly smooth your skin is there. I love the warmth that your skin brings to mine, especially in the winter when I start turning into ice cubes at night. Just being near you makes my whole body pay attention to the nearness and the feel of your presence. I love that you are always ready to press that amazing skin as close to me as possible just to be as near to me as I want to be to you. I love you.

Your arms….

     I started to post this yesterday but unfortunately we had our hands full with all of the kids which made it a little bit hectic.

So warm and inviting your amazing arms can be. Even when it seems the rest of the world has fallen into complete shambles the moment that your arms are wrapped around me I am safe. There is nothing better than feeling your arms pulling me into your embrace protecting me from the rest of the harsh and cruel world that I so often can’t handle alone. You could be gone for hours or days and my worry and anxieties are instantly washed away by that first embrace when you walk in the door with my head on your chest and you kissing my forehead. I know that sometimes it seems that I’m a very strong and self-reliant person but without those arms constantly pulling away all the frustrations and insecurities I would just be another ordinary, crazy, lost little girl.  I don’t think you realize really what you and your strong arms do to me. When I’m having a bad day and you wrap your arms around me I literally feel like all the anxiety, stress,  worry, and sadness and everything else I may be feeling is pulled out of my chest and washed clean away. I don’t know how you do it. I trust you more than anyone and I believe in everything that you say and everything you have offered me and your arms have become my safe haven. I want nothing more than to be wrapped in your arms forever, with you. I Love You

Your Lips...

I can’t wait til you get home. Everyday I’m awaiting the sensation that rushes through me when your lips touch mine. The tingles that each kiss gives me. My head swims and just like in the books my knees go weak. I can’t help it, you just have this incredible affect over me. The warmth of your tongue and your breath as the press against my skin is so thrilling I can’t keep still. I could spend hours simply kissing your amazing lips, lost in the moments full of the passion that keep me wanting more. It’s one of my favorite things about you. Your ability to get just as lost in the passionate kisses and heated moments as easily as I do. Kissing you is my absolute favorite thing, there is just so much that can be said in a kiss that can’t be said any way else. The kisses in the morning say hello gorgeous, even though your breath stinks and your hair’s a mess and you hit me in the face with a flailing arm last night…I still love you. The kisses as I leave in the morning say come back to bed I don’t want you to go because I miss you too much even though I like your side of the bed better. The kisses after work say I’m exhausted but not too tired to do whatever it takes to make you happy. The kisses before bed say one of two things. One, I love you so very much and I want to show you exactly how much that is….dance with me a while. Two, I love you so very much I want to hold you close all night and do this all over again until the end of forever. Your kisses mean the world to me and I hold them so very highly in my mind. I love that it’s you I’m kissing every day because, I Love You.

Your eyes...

Some how you have managed to completely captivate me in just a matter of seconds. All I have to do is look into your eyes and there is instantly nothing else around us. The world just consists of the two of us. You have this way of speaking through your eyes, they say the words that you aren't always capable of saying. My favorite look of yours being your sultry "I want you" look that you pull off so well by dipping your head a little low so that you have to look up at me you get this sexy smirk on your face and your eyes just sparkle in the many shades of blue and green and gray through your thick black lashes with eyes that are slightly closed and so effortlessly focused on me. In those moments my breath catches in my chest and all I can do is smile back at you until I can breathe again and wrap you in my arms. Your eyes always say it all. I can see when you're happy, sad, frustrated, loved and so many emotions and feelings that aren't so easy to describe. I Love that when you look at me there is nothing else more important in the world than me and you and that moment. I love you more every day.