Your gentleness...

I'm having a hard day today and I really don't know what I'm doing right now but I don't want to miss a day telling you all the reasons that you are amazing. Today I went and signed the paperwork to file for divorce and ironically enough Joshua called me and said we needed to sit down and figure out a schedule and finish separating stuff and I told him that I was filing. The reason I'm telling you this is because it's so amazing how different people can be. I've always been one to be fair and I try to do whats right and Josh is so very "do what I want when I want no matter who or what gets hurt." His statement today before I told him what I was going to do was...I was thinking that you could have him 2 or three weekends out of the month that would give you six days with him. And all I can picture is you and how you are with your kids, knowing that had you been in the same position with the power you would have done what I was doing and offered equal time so that the kids could have both parents. You are so gentle when it comes the the things in life that are sincerely important...mostly when it comes to emotional well being and I truly admire that about you. You are so amazing with all of the kids and with everyone that you care about. You're a tall and skinny teddy bear, whom  I love very much.