I'm smelling you all over the pillows I've been trying to take a nap on. It's my lazy Tuesday and the last Tuesday I'll have off before starting the new schedule we've both been anticipating so much. I can't help but be a little sad that you aren't here with me nuzzling my neck like you do when you pull me close. I love it when you do that. It makes me giggle.
Laying here trying to fall asleep and I can't quit thinking of you. As usual. I'm picturing you sleeping last night and how peaceful you were. I'm seeing the way you look at me with those eyes that beckon me nearer, always nearer. I can't stop thinking of the way your skin feels, so smooth like porcelain but warm like the sun. I'm missing your kisses that engulf me in a sea of momentary madness where I want to find a way to push myself into you so that I'm never without you.
This moment that I've bee having without you is so surreal. Knowing that this is mine. You are mine. I can have you always. And knowing that I DO want you, always, like no other, it's just so strange a concept to me. This moment, knowing that you aren't here and realizing that bits of you are still here is just so amazing. Your smell on the pillows and sheets I'm laying on. Your clothes in the corner. Your things on the dresser. It's a moment that I am forever grateful for because it means that you are mine and we have opened ourselves to something so amazing that we have still yet to grasp the enormity of it.
My Sun, My Moon, My Life. You have brought back an amazing outlook on life that I haven't seen in years and it's nice to finally be able to look around and see love, and not only remember what it feels like but to actually FEEL it again. I Love you because of who you have become to me.
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